
Football was my identity, my structure and my future.
I grew up chasing one dream—becoming a professional footballer. From childhood through to the Under-21s, I was part of Newcastle United. It gave my life direction and shaped the standards I still carry today.
In April 2013, I was called in and told I would be released. I knew it was coming, but hearing it out loud broke something inside me. It was not a lack of work ethic—I had always worked relentlessly—but deep down, my self-belief never matched my effort.
Soon after, I signed for St Johnstone in Scotland. I trained hard, travelled with the first team and kept pushing. Midway through my second season, I realised my love for the game had faded. Football had become survival rather than passion.





